Scratches

I feel so bad and I don't even know why.

Sometimes, I wanna go back to the day when I still hesitate to voice out my opinion, to think twice in showing my feelings, to be afraid to show who I really am...because it turned out that my true self is someone that I don't wanna be.

I'm frightened of what I'm turning out to be...
...of knowing who and what I really am...

I am an angel on the outside (as what most people think)...
but I am a monster on the inside.

I'm slowly driving people away...even those people I care the most.

I'm a jerk, an emo, a weirdo and I am bad.
bad...bad...bad...