November 06, 2011

I'm becoming a monster.

I am slowly turning into something that I don't wanna be. I'm slowly letting the people I love go away from me. Worse, those were the people that I care about so much. I don't understand what is happening with me now, of what I turned out to be. I'm slowly becoming brutal, selfish, proud, a nagger, bitter; and I hate that it's my family that is seeing this change in me. I hate the distance that's clearly in between us. I hate it when I can't smile or laugh that much when I'm with them. I'm even ashamed of smiling in front of my mother! I keep on nagging all the time. AND I REALLY, REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR THAT.

God knows how much I love my family more than anyone else.