I'm not in the mood right now so all I'm gonna write about are mostly negative things. I don't really know what causes this but part of it is because I'm just simply irritated by someone's selfishness. And I don't have any plans of mentioning who that someone might be. It's just so irritating to think that some people just think of themselves; those people who just care for you just because they're obliged to do so and not because they really sincerely do.
Another thing that irritates me right now is other people's airiness -that is, mga hanginon. It's just sometimes so annoying for people to brag something about themselves, and you, well, you keep on thinking of reasons and ways just so you can accept that "fact" that they've said about themselves. Well, it's okay to brag but not too much, and as log as you can prove it and that you're worthy of that praise you give yourself. It's actually better to keep quiet or just be humble and have other people discover for themselves those things that you have that are worth bragging for than let yourself boast something that you have that others find it hard to believe.
This blog was supposed to be posted yesterday but due to some circumstances (which honestly was because
my broadband has reached its limit of 800mbps due to watching the video clips of The American Idol Season 10), it was just posted today. (at nag-explain?)
I am an avid fan of the show, one is because its American (yeah, talk about crab mentality - *oh, it made me crave for crabs*); another is because I love to listen to the way the contestants talk and sing; another thing is I also love singing; and YES...
It's because of Ryan Seacrest. I don't know a lot about the man (since I'm not that updated with Hollywood gossips and all that. Mind you, we don't have a cable connection at home), but well, Ryan lives up to the image of a real American guy. He's sexy, adorable and a gentleman (at AI). He's just so American, swak na swak.
And by the way, I miss hearing Simon Cowell's frank, harsh but funny comments and his accent. I just hope Steven Tyler's gonna make his own style to make AI as interesting as it was before because of Simon. And how I love JLo being on the show. The woman's simply stunning and so kind. Randy Jackson, well yeah, he's cool.
I was watching those 'Memorable Audition' clips of AI at around 2:30 in the morning and I've been laughing and crying at the same time. There are a lot of crazy Americans showing off their what they call 'Talents' and ended up looking like a fool during the auditions and I was thinking, 'Are there really a lot of psychopaths in the USA?'
I was moved by Chris Medina (who sang 'Break Even' by The Script) because of his love story. His love was admirable, something that you can really say as 'the love of a real man'. The guy was actually engaged for 2 years with his girlfriend of 8years. They were supposed to get married, and he had even made vows two months prior, when his girlfriend met an accident that leave her wheelchair-ridden and her once beautiful face distorted. Yet, there was Chris, in front of the camera, telling millions of viewers all over the world, how much he still loves his girlfriend. What struck me most was when he said that, "I told her the vows of through sickness and in health, through thick and thin...What kind of man would I be if I leave her like that". Talk about a man who has dignity and honor. You're the man, Chris!
And finally, there's the black female contestant that really stayed on my mind. I forgot what her name was (last name was Lovle). I also forgot where she come from but she has an accent. My heart goes out to this lady. She was there in front, singing somewhat out of tune, and so the judges say NO to her. And she said that she can still improve her accent if that was the problem. And it was so hard for JLo to explain that it's not with the accent that made them say no but the singing itself. And what made it worse was that when she walked out the door and went to meet Ryan, there's nobody there to meet and support her. It was so awful when Ryan asked her if she's okay and all she said was 'Okay' and walked away without meeting his eye. I was imagining how humiliated she might have felt during that time. And who knows she's still crying about it until now. ;(
“The first one is the worst one when it comes to a broken heart” (Boys Like Girls). When I first heard this song, all I could think about was the man who made this line a fucking reality. Some may agree with this, others would say that it’s not the first but the ‘real thing’, as they say, that really hurts. Well, it’s pretty both true for me since he was the first and so far the only one I did love. Cheesy, right? Well, everything about love is cheesy anyway.
Then there goes the line “First Love Never Dies”. This line’s actually super corny. Gross! Haha! If this line’s literally true the other way around, then it would really help a lot in minimizing our problem with overpopulation, there’ll be a lot of happy bitter women, and the world will be a better place to live in! But I’m not gonna pray for that because in a positive way, there’s nothing more special than remembering how you said your very first ‘I love you’. Once you grow old, you would want to reminisce how crazy and how immature you used to be…you would laugh at how your eyes swelled because of crying for someone you know you can’t live without (duh!)…those small funny moments that made your boring teenage life worthy to be shared. And of course, you would want to remember all those crappy, corny lines that you posted on your facebook’s What’s-on-your-mind? box about your heartaches and your changing of relationship status from ‘single’ to ‘in a relationship’ to ‘it’s complicated’ to ‘single’ again (since you had a fight) and went back to ‘in a relationship’ (since he said his halfhearted sorry to you) and just made it permanent after you got ‘married’ (who turned out to be a totally different person =p). Funny, right? If you’re currently in a mending-my-wounded-heart-because-he-left-me mood, just think that there are only two reasons why that happens: this may not be the right time yet OR he may not be the right one. Whatever it is, feel the pain. It’s what makes us human after all. You bleed just to know your alive. =)
A nice thought on a Thursday (TGIF doesnt really apply all the time) morning...
I had just finished reading 'Confessions of a Shopaholic' with a cup of coffee on a very early morning. Nice novel, funny and inspiring. Just made me think about my current life. I realized that I've never been this happy with my life, compared to what I had a year ago. Y'know the feeling of contentment even though you don't have everything. Come to think of it, I don't have a boyfriend. I've lost a boyfriend, who used to be the sexiest, most adorable and most sought-after guy in our school (I was just exaggerating =p). And now that it's been a year, I've realized that he's not really a big loss at all. I can say that I've finally moved on. I'm proud to say that I used to be head-over-heels in love with him, that I was hurt like hell, and that I've finally managed to moved on independently without that being-involved-to-somebody-else-just-so-I-can-forget-him cliche.I'm single, proud to be one, and though I'm missing the feeling of being with somebody special, I'm happy, absolutely happy. And I've transformed. Yeah, like an ugly duckling turning into a beautiful swan. Modesty and kidding aside (hehe), I find myself pretty now. It may not be because I really am but more likely because I'm just a bit more confident now. I've grown up, I am more mature and I've transformed myself into a woman.
And oh well, I'm just so excited to read all those e-books that I recently downloaded. Life's not perfect, but well, you just have to think that it's perfect...and everything will absolutely turn out perfectly! Til then! xoxo
I've been thinking about the day I started to learn how to speak and write and it amazes me how excellent my parents have taught me…because I turned out to be so talkative and ‘vandalistic’.haha!
This is again another blog site from me, just so you can take a peek of what’s really running inside this sometimes-weird-always-wired head of mine (as if you really care, right? hehe)…about my thoughts, beliefs, reflection, feelings, and everything.
