September 24, 2013

For you...

Taylor Swift

I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
'Til you open the door
There's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I've watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Just a simple gift but I hope this is enough to make you smile.
Pampatulog mo na rin. :)
Sorry if naay mali. Kapoy na man record balik. Hehe. 

Happy birthday Emman!
See you soon.

September 15, 2013


Good morning my dear,

I woke up at 2 am today. I only slept for roughly four hours since my last duty last night. I guess my body clock's still trying to adjust to this normal sleeping pattern. So all I did today was to transfer photos of my friends to my phone. Wala lang, I guess I just wanna stare at them whenever I miss them.

The moment I stepped into that plane, I know that life will never be as it was. I can no longer be with the people I used to laugh and have fun with. I guess it was the same when I was handed my diploma. You say goodbye, say promises to still see each other in the next few years. You exchange text messages, IMs on Facebook, planned meetups, but you can no longer have that same bonding you used to have before.

You get to meet new people everyday in your life but they will just pass. They will just be a part of your past and the only thing they can leave you are memories. Life teaches us how to say goodbye, let go and move on in the most bittersweet way.

I am slowly packing things up. I'm scared, scared as hell. Remember when I told you that I am afraid of changes, that I love being on the safe side. You know, sometimes I wish to just go back to being a kid, that moment when I was in bed with my brothers, singing together while raining, while our parents were watching TV in the living room. That's what always comes to mind whenever a big change is going to happen in my life.

But you know what, I've never been this excited in my entire life. I used to wonder what I will do in the next few years. For all we knew, I've been working so hard but I never really had a fixed plan in mind. But the future now looks good, actually it's better, a perfect view. And you know that I would do everything to make that a reality.


September 05, 2013


My dear paper,

I've been overwhelmed lately with lots of happy-nings in my life. This started last Tuesday when I received a text message saying that I am qualified for training at CAAP. I didn't blog about it right away since I've been waiting for their official post on the website just so I can have something other than that text message to assure me that I really did make it. But oh well, it's hard not to boast about it. Sorry if I'm making it such a big deal but it is indeed a very big one for me. It was tough making it there, you know, and it's indeed a pride to be part of it. You know that I've always believed that I am made for something big. I really don't wanna be a part of the ordinary. This is one reason why I didn't aspire to be a teacher. Don't get me wrong but I don't wanna add up to the long list of teachers in our family. I wanna be different and I want to achieve something that only a few can. And I am praying that I've finally found the rightful place for me.

I was also so happy and relieved by how well my bosses accepted the news that I am resigning. They are even happy and proud of me for making it there. I've received lots of wishes of congratulations.

Just when I was about to worry about my fear of starting alone in the big city, my fellow trainee sent me a message asking me if I already have a place to stay in Manila, which we both don't...and there I found my Manila-buddy. :)

I also get to keep my sideline which will definitely be a great help with my finances while on training.

My parents were struggling with money lately but thank God they've found a way. 

I've always had this worry that my year of training will be a greater burden for my family, what with me not having a job and all. But I know God will provide. Money, or lack thereof, will not end our world.

I've been wanting to share something interesting to you but I'm thinking that maybe it's too early for it. Y'know what, I'm currently on the getting-to-know-someone stage. I know you're thinking that this is definitely someone interesting as I don't really write something about someone unless he is worth writing about. And let's see...I haven't really written about a guy in two years time. So yeah, although I don't wanna admit it, this one passed the initiation. But I don't wanna spoil more details here. As I've said, it's too early for that. I will write more about him if there will still be him in the coming months.

I sometimes wonder why God is giving me all these blessings when I know that I'm not really that worthy. It frightens me sometimes that after all these good things happening, unpleasant things will follow. But I know God doesn't work that way. I'm keeping my faith.

I am just happy. And I know you are too.