November 09, 2011

PA – PEYSBUK NGA!!!!

“PA – PEYSBUK NGA!!!!”. Linya ng estudyante na uubusin ang baon para makapagrent sa isang internet shop. Linya ng isang empleyado pagkadating niya sa opisina at naabutang ginagamit ng katrabaho ang office computer. Linya ng kapitbahay na gustong maki gamit ng internet sa kadahilanang hindi siya nakapagbayad ng bill. At kung sino man ang sinasabihan nila, malamang ang isasagot nito ay.. “teka, log out ko lang..”. Nagpe-facebook din pala.

Facebook. Ang social networking site na lumamon sa myspace at friendster. Ito rin ang pilit kinakaibigan ng ilan pang aspiring forms of social media. Pansinin mo, yung mga bagong kumakaribal sa Facebook e may feature kung saan magrereflect din sa FB account mo ang kung ano mang post mo, gamit ang site nila. Gaya nalang ng twitter, tumblr at kung ano ano pa. Parang pelikula. Pag pinalabas ito sa sinehan sa guadamall (ang mabagsik na mall sa guadalupe), ipapalabas din ito sa sinehan ng MOA. Nagkakaiba nga lang sa level ng urine aroma at dami ng surot sa upuan.

Sa sobrang popularidad nito ay pwede na itong iconsider na necessity. Iba na ngayon. Humans need food, water and facebook. Clothing? Ano ngayon kung nakahubad. At least. nakaporma ka naman sa bago mong profile picture. Pwede na ngang iconsider ang kasalukuyan bilang “The Facebook Era”. Ang panahon kung saan tangap na ang mga bading at tomboy (kaya ikaw, wag na magpanggap, ok na daw, di mo na kelangan mag gym kuno), kung saan mas mahal nang mga tao ang aso kesa sa kapwa nila tao (inday!! ibigay mo ung ulam mo kay brownie, mag skyflakes ka nalang!!!), kung saan lahat ay tumatakbo sa mga marathon, kung saan lahat ay may necklace na ang pendant ay isang mamahaling camera, kung saan papalitan na ng cobra at sting ang dumadaloy sa mga tubo ng NAWASA, kung saan lahat ng statement ay dapat magtapos sa isang uri ng emoticon (uy, tang ina mo, joke. (“,) ). Lahat ito ay bahagi na ng social norm. Lahat tangap na. Pero huwag. Uulitin ko. HUWAG NA HUWAG mong sasabihin, lalo na sa isang pampublikong lugar na. “Ay, wala akong Facebook eh..”. Patay ka dyan brad. Kiss of death yun. Baka bigla kang paskilan ng papel sa noo mo na may nakasulat na EEEWWWW!!!. Baka biglang magkaroon ng caste system sa pinas at lahat ng walang FB account ay mga untouchables. Pwede ring i-ekskomunikado ka ng simbahan katoliko at ipapakalat ito sa mga tweet ng arsobispo.

Kung stalker ka, di na kelangan ng paliwanag kung bakit adik na adik ka sa FB. Pero para sa masa. Ano bang meron dito?

Bukod sa green joke na ibinulong sayo nung tropa mong adik, pwede ka ding magshare ng pictures (aka pix),videos, notes at mga links mula sa iba pang sites. Makikita ito ng mga “friends” mo at pwede silang magkomento dito. Walang limit ang pagpo post. May sense man o wala. Healthy nga daw ito sabi nung mga sociologist. Exercising our rights to free speech daw ito. Pero lahat ba e post-worthy? O karamihan ay nagdadala lang ng badtrip.

Freedom of speech pala ha. Ito ang post ko tungkol sa mga post ng iba. Guilty tayo dito.

1. Iwasan ang pabigla – biglang pagpapalit ng relationship status. Lalo na kung mababaw lang ang dahilan tulad ng late reply sa text o hindi pag iloveyou sayo ang jowa mo kaninang alas tres (sarili nyong 3 o’clock habit). Dahil pag nagka-ayos kayo, at ibinalik mo sa dati ang status mo, ikaw din ang magmumukhang praning.

2. Walang masama kung purong tagalog ang shout out mo. Wag matakot na sabihan nang “uy makata”. Kesa naman panay nga ang english, sablay naman ang grammar at hindi kakikitaan ng sense ang sinabi. (iba ang you’re sa your).

3. Check in. Ang post kung saan sinasabi ang kasalukuyan mong lokasyon. Positibo. Pwedeng maging safety precaution. At least alam nila kung saan ka huling pumunta sakaling di ka mahagilap ng ilang araw. Negatibo. Easy prey ka sa mga serial killers o sa kaibigan na may galit sayo. (Ingat ka silvestre. hehehe)

4. May “about you” page ang FB. Dun mo isusulat ang mga hilig mo. Di mo na kelangan pang magpost ng magpost ng mga youtube videos nila Ozzy Osbourne, Metallica o Korn para ipagdiinan na rakista ka. Ikaw din, baka mahirapan kang panindigan. Lalo na pag tumugtog na ang paborito mong kanta ni Katy Perry. Napaindak at sing along si kumag.

5. Hindi kelangan magpost ng mga litrato o video nang iniembalsamo o bangkay na durog durog ang katawan at labas ang mga laman loob. Palit kaya kayo nung andun sa picture. Ako naman ang magpopost.

6. Magtira ng konting privacy para sa sarili. Hindi lahat ng bagay ay dapat ishare. Lalo na sa social media. Sarilinin mo nalang ang gusot sa pamilya o away mag asawa. Pribado na yon. Post ka ng post, tapos mababadtrip ka kung gagawing pulutan sa inuman ang kwento ng buhay mo.

7. Ok lang ipost ang mga bago mong gamit. Gaya ng mga gadget, damit o accessories. Natural lang maging proud ka lalo na kung pinaghirapan mo o importanteng tao ang nagbigay sayo nito. Di lang siguro tama na sabihing “hay nakakapagod na magshopping, andami ko kasi pinamili”.

8. Kung sakaling may nagpost ng malungkot o kaya’y tungkol sa isang masamang pangyayari sa kanila, wag mong i-like. Ano yun? Nagustuhan mo pa na sumemplang siya sa kanal.

9. Wag mong i-like ang sarili mong post. Kaya nga pinost mo in the first place. Mas malala kung ikaw din ang magcocomment. Parang loner ka naman nun.

10. Wag kang basta basta magpost ng nakakagagong comment, lalo na sa mga picture kung saan may mga taong di mo kilala. Halimbawa: “Pre, sino yang kasama mo sa pic? si Bella Flores?”. Huli mo na nalaman. Girlfriend pala niya yun.

11. Kung sakaling may nagpost ng matino at informative na mensahe. Magpasalamat. Huwag mag angas sabay comment nang “ay luma na yan, huli kana sa balita” o kaya “wala, kalokohan lang yan”. Wag kang magmagaling. Matalino kaba na parang si Rizal? E di pabaril ka sa Luneta.

12. Wag gamitin ang FB para magpakalat ng maling impormasyon at maghatid ng mass hysteria. Pero kung sino man ang napost na aabot dito ang radiation sa japan. Nagpapasalamat sayo ang manufacturer ng Betadine.

13. Wag sumali at i-like ang isang fan page kung puro kagaguhan lang ang ipopost mo sa wall nito. Halimbawa, nagpamember ka sa page ng isang seksing artista tapos mag cocomment ka lang ng “uy, sarap mo naman, parang mainit na lugaw sa malamig sa madaling araw”. Tapos magtataka, “hala.. bakit ako na banned?”.

14. Hindi lang ikaw ang may gustong manood ng sine. Wag kang mag post ng mga spoilers na maaaring ikabadtrip ng iba. “just watched Nardong Putik: Ang Pagbabalik Ni Totoy Burak, ganda ng ending, napatay nya ung kontra bida sa pamamagitan ng pagpukpok sa ulo ng isang palayok, pero sad dahil huli na nang malaman nya na tatay niya pala yun..”.

15. Di naman ata kelangan simulan ang post mo sa salitang “Damn!!” o kaya “Oh gosh” lalo na kung di naman malubha o kagulat gulat ang pangyayari. Halimbawa: “oh gosh, umuulan”. Taga saudi???

16. Wag matawa at kantyawan kung corny o masyadong romantiko ang isang post. Tandaan mo, magmamahal ka din. Lintik lang ang walang ganti. Dami kong kilalang ganyan.

17. Ok lang siguro ipost kung ano at kung saan ka kumakain. Iwasan lang yung pagpopost ng close up pictures nung pagkain mismo. Marami ang nagpapalipas ng gutom sa pamamagitan ng Facebook. Sino ka para inggitin sila. Parang yung feeling na, asa air-con bus ka, pauwi sa bahay at gutom tapos may kumag na kakain ng burger at fries. Langhap mo ang bawat kagat niya. Di maka tao. Dapat palitan ang pangalan niya. Gawing Lucifer.

18. Ok lang siguro ang mag post sa paraang Jejemon. Trip mo yun e. Wag mo nga lang asahan na seseryosohin ka kahit matino ang gusto mong sabihin. Expect mo rin na lahat ng comment sayo e magtatapos sa “jejejeje”.

19. Wag magimbita sa isang okasyon gamit ang shout out mo, tapos may ita-tag ka lang na piling tao. Bangag kaba? Makikita ng lahat ng “friends” mo na iilan lang ang gusto mo papuntahin sa nasabing okasyon.

20. Pwede ba?? HINDI PORKET ALL CAPS E GALIT ANG NAGPOST. BAKA LUMUBOG AT NASTUCK LANG ANG CAPS LOCK.

21. Sapat naman na siguro ang tatlong exclamation point para ipaalam sa bumabasa na puno ng emosyon ang post mo. Di mo kelangan punuin ng punctuations porket walang bayad ang extra characters tulad ng sa text messaging. Halimbawa. Pakyu ka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Mali yun. Dapat. Pakyu ka!!!

22. Iwasang magpost kung ikaw ay (a) lasing, (b) nasa impluwensya ng ipinagbabawal na gamot o (c) hindi tinirahan ng ulam. Walang gustong makabasa ng pag aamok mo na puno ng mali maling spelling. Kung sakaling nakakaramdam ng “FB rage”, magpahid ng menthol toothpaste sa mga palad, at itampal tampal sa mukha mo hanggang sa kumalma.

23. Oo, dapat sulitin ang unlimited surfing na maghapon mong binantayan para lang maregister. Pero di ibig sabihin nun na post lang ng post. Halimbawa, ang ilalagay mo sa shout out mo e tatlong magkakasunond na tuldok. Ano yun? Buti pa quote nalang. Time is gold.

24. Wag trigger happy sa “share” button. Hindi porket di nagappear sa profile page ang mabangis mong status message e kelangan mong tiktikin ang pagpindot. Antayin mo lang. Mamaya ilang beses na pala napost. Paulit ulit. Wag kang atat. Lalo na kung ang ipopost mo e “Patience is a virtue”.

25. Wag mong kakumpetensyahin ang youtube sa dami ng video na nakapost sa wall mo. OK lang siguro kung ishare mo ang isang nakakatawang clip kung saan may nag susurfing na pusa o kaya naman e makabuluhang excerpt ng isang documentary. Wag naman yung lahat ng mtv ng kantang marinig mo sa jeep o lahat ng episode ng wow mali.

26. Wag ipahamak ang sarili. Kung sakaling pwede naman palang acronym ang isang term e wag mo na itong buuhin sa iyong post. Loud out loud!!!!.

27. Hindi masamang makisali sa mga occasional drives o campaigns. Tulad ng paggamit ng picture ng nanay mo pag mother’s day o pag post ng mensahe tungkol sa cancer bilang status message mo. Hindi porket di ka nakisali e cool o mas sophisticated ka.

28. Kung may nagcomment o nagpost sa wall mo na di mo kilala ang pangalan pati na ang picture. I-open saglit ang profile. Wag mo agad replyan ng makamandag na “HU U?”. Malay mo, tropa mo pala yun. Binaliktad lang ang pangalan. O kaya naman e dinagdagan ng H. Mhayhumhi Pharhedez.

29. Kung magcocomment ka, halimbawa sa isang picture, iwasang gumamit ng paghahalintulad sa ibang tao lalo na kung kagaguhan lang ang sasabihin mo. Halimbawa, “baduy ng porma mo pre, parang bisaya lang” o kaya “mukha kang magsasaka”. Tandaan, di ka lamang o nakahihigit sa mga bisaya at magsasaka. Ikaw kaya, magpost ka ng video tungkol sa mga unggoy, tapos may magcomment, “ambobobo naman nila, parang ikaw”.

30. Wag kang magatubiling bumati sa mga post tungkol sa panganganak ng isang ina, pagpapakasal ng magsing irog o pagkatangap sa trabaho. Sa magulong mundo, hindi ba’t masarap ishare ang mga positibong pangyayari.

Code of ethics. Wala. Oo. Walang basagan ng trip.

Pero hindi ba mas maganda kung ginagamit mo to sa matinong paraan?

Pa-Peysbuk nga!!!


* from a Shamcey Supsup FB fan page

Justice for Father Pops

Sometimes, violence is just too hard to understand...

November 06, 2011

I'm becoming a monster.

I am slowly turning into something that I don't wanna be. I'm slowly letting the people I love go away from me. Worse, those were the people that I care about so much. I don't understand what is happening with me now, of what I turned out to be. I'm slowly becoming brutal, selfish, proud, a nagger, bitter; and I hate that it's my family that is seeing this change in me. I hate the distance that's clearly in between us. I hate it when I can't smile or laugh that much when I'm with them. I'm even ashamed of smiling in front of my mother! I keep on nagging all the time. AND I REALLY, REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR THAT.

God knows how much I love my family more than anyone else.

October 28, 2011

Yeah...

It's kinda ironic when the people you know become people you knew...when you can walk right past someone as if they were never a huge part of your life...you used to be able to talk for hours on the phone and now you can't even look at each other in the damn eye...and it completely breaks your heart to know that some good things change, and there's nothing that you can do.

October 24, 2011

What I just want...

I wanna wake up when the sun is just about to rise...
I wanna start the day with a jog.
I wanna know that someone is there happy to see me.
I'm just freakin' tired that all I wanna do is to turn my back and sleep.
Yeah, sleep. My body no longer understands it.

October 17, 2011

pra sa mga feeler


Feelings are like waves. They sometimes lead you to a different direction. Rule? Just don't get too overwhelmed. Words said and actions done aren't as easy to remove as a Facebook status.
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October 15, 2011

bianca-to-be =)

i've been told that i express myself well through words, but i know i'm not an excellent writer. my grammar, punctuations, and prepositions are sometimes off, i don't know the meaning of a lot of big words, and there is so much about the world that other people know but i don't. i do know that i am passionate about sharing my thoughts with words, and i guess that counts. :)


from: http://www.iamsuperbianca.com/

October 06, 2011

Here's the feeling that keeps coming back. Great!

Yeah, it's sarcasm.


I dreamed of him a lot of times before but I haven't really taken those dreams seriously. Until now that I've really taken the time to think about him. And my heart convinces my sane mind that I've been missing him all this time. That's sh*t, I know. And I started daydreaming...weaving stories of us being friends again...and him falling for me all over again...and me taking my chance of revenge...of them breaking apart...of him choosing me over her...of...STOP! I don't wanna be that stupid girl once more. I don't wanna feel this butterfly feeling. Please. Oh, please!


And fate has its own freaking timing. That other man just changed his status into "in a relationship" and that's it! It's enough! Drag me to hell. =(

October 04, 2011

a peace of sheet

12:24 PM 10/4/2011

Hey, you know what? I'm so proud of myself. Because after all those rejections that I've felt from you (on which you are not aware of), I still manage to smile and have fun even with just little things. I still managed to forget you even for just a little while. But you know how these romantic comedies work. They make you smile, give butterfly feelings in your stomach, cry...and remember...and wish...and dream that someday, those happy endings will also happen in real life. I feel so sad, that right after that moment, you no longer go online that much. I may not be that big of a deal to you but I felt like you are trying to get away from me. And that, by itself, is a simple, painful rejection. I'm trying too hard to stop myself from sending you even just a friendly message, knowing that you're gonna go in just a couple of days now, but for what? It will just be a move that I'll regret in a few months from now. My feelings would be that obvious, or you might think of me negatively, right? I hate crying, though sometimes it felt good. Or maybe it's not crying that I hate. It's the reason for my crying. Oh, crap.

October 02, 2011

The greatest love story ever told
is your own...

-Letters to Juliet-

September 30, 2011

I feel so alone...

Have you ever felt that emptiness when you realized that nobody is there waiting for you...

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?


It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life


It's so sad knowing that that person you long to have will never be yours.

Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new?


I don't know how to say what I exactly feel right now...

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind...

September 29, 2011

Tinuy-an Falls, The Doll House, Enchanted River and Island Hopping

This is the first team building of the Cadillac. 'twas so fun I can't believe all those adventures happened in just one day.

We traveled starting from Davao at around 8pm. There were about I guess 18 of us (including our teammates' kauyabans) who managed to fit inside the van. We were so congested and so sleepy yet very excited for our upcoming adventures. We arrived at Bislig, Surigao City at around 12 midnight.

sleepover at Janice's (Miss Noreen's former agent) house

So here's our itinerary:

1st stop: Tinuy-an Falls in Bislig City, Surigao del Sur.
Tinuy-an Falls in Bislig City is just one of the 12 majestic falls found in Surigao del Sur
You can go right where the falls fall(?) thru this bamboo boat. A long string is tied from either side so you just have to pull it to reach the other side.

This is just one of the 5 falls. You can reach the top thru a ladder or just thru the falls, fighting off the strong water current.
 It took us almost an hour to reach the falls. The road is underdeveloped but it's all worth it. This is the first, and is the best part of our trip. First stop pa lang, solve na.


2nd stop: Doll House, Bislig City

You have to endure this long flight of stairs to reach the Doll House

Yeah, it's full of dolls (hehe). This was featured in Rated K and is internationally known.

Here you can find all dolls from all over the world, dolls of fairy tale characters, villains and what-you-can-think of





3rd stop: Hinatuan’s Enchanted River and island hopping.

Absolutely enchanted. The water is so crystal clear and you can swim here with the fishes.
We're so lucky to have seen the feeding of the fishes at 12 noon. A music was played and that's when a school of fish goes out of its hiding place and the river was just literally filled with all kinds of fishes waiting to be fed. 'twas so enchanting.
So, yeah, this is my first ever island hopping experience, and feel na feel ko wearing my orange life jacket.hehe


Go swim and play with the turtles!


Sino siya?!




We reached home at around 11pm. It was raining and we were so exhausted (we're so crowded in the van and haven't eaten our dinner) but it was all worth it. Surigao indeed!

Rating:

September 27, 2011

Cafe Aurora

If you usually pass along Cabaguio Avenue, then Cafe Aurora must have rang a bell. This is one of the many places that we've visited for our cafe-hopping mission, so I have this responsibility of posting it for vanity's sake.








Rating:

September 26, 2011

Dear God, i wanna be happy again. i miss being one. i'd love to feel the goosebumps, thrills and the butterflies again. i wanna walk by a public park, holding hand in hand w/ somebody. i wanna wake up wrapped around her arms w/ a sweet morning kiss. i want someone to brush my hair and rub my back when im tired telling me, "you'll be fine." i want to learn how to cook, do the laundry, and make bed for someone. God, I want to feel loved by someone. if now's not the perfect time, pls help me move on and learn to be happy. AGAIN.

September 22, 2011

Ahmm, okay. Please send this letter to him.

Hi,

Do you still remember when I first said that to you? I guess not. You won't have to ask me though. I've saved every conversation we had on Facebook since day2 (day1 seemed so awkward for me then). Just so I can read them over and over again. Surprised? Well, yeah. I guess I've always loved you even I before I met you. It's a cliche, I know. But that's for real.

How long have we been friends? Oh, it's been 9 months now. And I've secretly loved you for all this time. 9 months is not just simply 9 months. It's hard to keep it all inside. I don't fall that hard with just about anybody. I did once before. And that had been tragic. And I've never felt more certain that I've fallen once again.

Yet, I guess I have to travel that same road of rejection again. You haven't given any sign of interest in me. Well, you don't have to worry about it. I understand. I'm certain that Im not your type. It's okay. I can handle it. Anyway, I'm used to it. I'm just freaking tired of doing this. I usually ask myself, "Why can't I just fall for someone who feels the same way that I do? Why does it have to be someone who won't love me back? Why does it have to be you?"

I'm currently watching "A Crazy Little Thing Called Love". How I wish I could say those things that I wanna say to you as bravely as what Nam did.

I'm a hopeless romantic. As always. And I guess this is the bravest thing that I can do. I don't even know if I can do more than this. I'm the most coward girl when it comes to love. So this is my best. Sorry.

If you're thinking that it's you, yes, you're right. It's YOU. And I'm writing this coz I can no longer contain it. I don't expect anything from you. I just wanna say it. If I can't say it straight to you, atleast I was able to say it HERE - where I first saw your smile and kind eyes, where we first met and became friends. Thanks for the likes and comments and the PMs. I know they will no longer come when you read this. But that's okay. Either way is a lose-lose situation.

So long...

September 21, 2011

D' Leonor Coffee Shop and Restaurant

Hmmm, how should I start with this one. If I can describe this place in one word, it would be WORSE. If you happen to know where this place is, I should warn you not to step inside this room with fully clothed tables and chairs because it's gonna be useless. The place doesn't know the word Customer Service. I don't even know how it manages to stay in business with all those lousy treatment that we got from the waiters. We were the only customers at that time but we felt that they would like us to eat our breakfast quickly and step out of their way as fast as we could. But still, we managed to still make some happy pictures:





Oh my, yeah, thank you for welcoming us anyway.


Rating:

September 18, 2011

Again and again...

2:12 PM 9/18/2011

Here it is again. I'm feeling this familiar feeling of sadness, emptiness and hurt. It's so sad when someone you like doesn't feel the way that you do. Worse is you have no one to share your feelings with because you don't want anybody else to know how ridiculous you are for feeling that way.

What's hard about being a girl is the risk of telling a guy that you like him. It's either he'll take advantage of that feeling or keep his distance from you. Either way is a losing battle. That's why I'd rather keep this feeling to myself and just treasure this friendship thingy that we have.

There's this certain girl who happened to be my officemate who's flirting with him and almost all their common friends know it. Okay, 1-0. Yeah, I'm jealous. And I don't wanna be. I don't want anybody else to know that I am.

Isn't it ironic when a lot of guys out there would be willing to be with you but that only person that you long be with is not one of them? Why do we always have to choose to love those people who can't love us back? Why does it have to be so hard?



To you, 

I like you. I really do. But I guess we can't be together because He wants you to be with someone more deserving than me. It's just so sad knowing that I don't fall that easily with just about anybody, and then you came, and I did, and that's it, nothing else follows. A bitter truth that we can never be together is just too unbearable. But well, I can manage. It's just that I've been on this road once, and I don't wanna go back again. It's just too tiresome. And yes, it's ruining my pride. But I guess I have to turn my back on you.

So long,
Me

August 23, 2011

22 on 22! (It's my burpday!)

12:50 AM 8/23/2011

Wow! That was memorable!

I just turned 22 yesterday. And that was one of the happiest birthdays I've ever had. We had a small pre-celebration with my mom and bro at our boarding house on the 21st. I never slept until midnight to check on some birthday greetings on FB, and let me just say, that was quite a lot (haven't even checked on some of them yet). And just after a couple of minutes after midnight, I received my first text greetings. And guess who sent it! It was Allen! And that, just that, completed my day. I couldn't wish for more. The rest of the day went great. My father called at dawn, greeted and said Iloveyou. My mom and I had lunch at SM. My FB wall was flooded with a lot of greetings. Also received multiple greetings on my phone. And of course, to end the day perfectly, I, along with my gay friends Jana and Jules, went to party at V-place with my favorite Flight 99 band. I felt like a VIP. The spotlight was always on me (char!) and Mackie (the vocalist) and Fender (the keyboardist) kept on greeting me. The vocalist of the other band, who was also cute, kept on staring at me (according to Jules though. I hate to assume that he was looking at me and not at the girls behind me. Lol!) I just felt so special (and beautiful! harhar). I haven't got the chance to capture the moments though. But still, that was enough. I'm happy. I love being here in Davao. Thanks Lord for the smiles. =)

August 04, 2011

sick, bored and lonely...

4:19 PM 8/4/2011

I don't wanna feel rejected again...

Have you ever checked on someone else's profile every so often? Or how frequently you clicked the chatbox just to know if there's a green dot beside his name? Seriously, it's crazy. Worse is when you see that he's available on chat and yet he's not chatting you. And you're feeling disappointed for imagining that he's now busy chatting with someone else and that green dot hasn't disappeared for hours now.

I don't know if he already noticed it. And I don't wanna think that that's the reason why he no longer gets in touch with me (though we don't constantly get in touch that much though). I just don't wanna feel rejected again.

I feel so sick...and lonely. ;(

July 20, 2011

A Date To Remember ♥

2:10 AM 7/20/2011

There's a smile plastered on my face while I am writing this. Guess what, I just had the best date of my life. Yeah, I'm with him again. It's our second date (if he ever considers it one). This time, it's his treat. We ate kwek2x and balut and talked about anything. Well, he talked about anything. I haven't thought that I would be able to have a ride with him in his motorcycle. I found it real sweet when he went home and return just to get a helmet for me (though riding the jeepney wouldn't be a problem for me). We rode all night, talked all night, and ate all night.

I've always imagined how we would spend that night together (such a daydreamer), and I've never expected that it would be more special than that.

Seeing those eyes twinkle each time he talks made my heart swoon. While watching those lips move, I imagine how wonderful it would feel to kiss him. Placing my hand on his shoulder while we're riding the motorcycle makes me wanna wrap my arms around him.

I remembered when  he asked me if there's something that I wanna tell him, any secret that I would wanna share. I just looked at him, said nothing, and smiled. My mind's shouting "If you only knew". I wanna tell him that I have this special feeling for him that keeps growing each day. I wanna tell him that I've been longing to look at those eyes, and that when I finally saw them again it felt like magic. I wanna tell him that spending time with him would be the best times of my life. I wanna tell him that I can listen to all his Caguioa talks all night and will never get bored. I wanna tell him lots of things. I wanna tell him that he's my secret...and that I am hoping and waiting for that time that he will not make it as my secret forever.

I'm looking forward to spend time with him again. Are we dating? I don't even know the answer to that. I just wanna savor the moment while it's there. Come what may. And I guess I'm gonna end this again with "I dunno".

July 13, 2011

Commitments. Promises. Choices.

If you love someone, ask them for nothing. Don't hold them back. Don't keep them from their destiny. Don't stop them from going off in search of their own answers. Don't ask them for commitment. You will know commitment is real when it is something given willingly, and not as something obligatory. Don't ask them for promises. If you are patient, if you have faith, you will know in your heart when the right time for promises has come.

And when that time arrives, then you will see that you have both lost nothing by setting each other free, and have instead gained a richer, fuller life, a wealth of experiences, and a stronger certainty of your desires.

But should they not return to you, then life hasn't cheated you because no promises were broken. Your bitterness will not last long, and you will feel thankful and blessed that at the very least, this beautiful soul has colored your life, that knowing them has already made life infinitely more meaningful.

By setting a person free, you run a risk of them not returning. But always remember that you found them beautiful precisely because they were free. People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you can never hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever. People CHOOSE to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so many other options. Love has no restrictions and it is through mistakes that sometimes we see the right answer. Because if you love someone, you ask them for nothing and they will come back to you.


-random copy/paste notes
-source: Cha

June 26, 2011

24 Shop In Store Cafe

There's not much to talk about this place but I wanna feature it anyway. 24 Shop In Store Cafe is a cafe (of course) and a convenience store fused as one. It's located in front of the People's Park (over there oh). And it's worth to mention that this cake, which name I forgot, is by far one of the most delicious ones that I've ever tasted:





There are a lot other foods that you can choose from and they're affordable, except for that cake anyway. So if you're planning to visit The People's Park and is attacked by hunger, this is one of the nearest place to go.


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June 22, 2011

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And so this is my new addiction. Of course, way laing model but me (hehe).
The quotes were from my black blogbook.