First love? Yeah, right!

“The first one is the worst one when it comes to a broken heart” (Boys Like Girls). When I first heard this song, all I could think about was the man who made this line a fucking reality. Some may agree with this, others would say that it’s not the first but the ‘real thing’, as they say, that really hurts. Well, it’s pretty both true for me since he was the first and so far the only one I did love. Cheesy, right? Well, everything about love is cheesy anyway.

Then there goes the line “First Love Never Dies”. This line’s actually super corny. Gross! Haha! If this line’s literally true the other way around, then it would really help a lot in minimizing our problem with overpopulation, there’ll be a lot of happy bitter women, and the world will be a better place to live in! But I’m not gonna pray for that because in a positive way, there’s nothing more special than remembering how you said your very first ‘I love you’. Once you grow old, you would want to reminisce how crazy and how immature you used to be…you would laugh at how your eyes swelled because of crying for someone you know you can’t live without (duh!)…those small funny moments that made your boring teenage life worthy to be shared. And of course, you would want to remember all those crappy, corny lines that you posted on your facebook’s What’s-on-your-mind? box about your heartaches and your changing of relationship status from ‘single’ to ‘in a relationship’ to ‘it’s complicated’ to ‘single’ again (since you had a fight) and went back to ‘in a relationship’ (since he said his halfhearted sorry to you) and just made it permanent after you got ‘married’ (who turned out to be a totally different person =p). Funny, right? If you’re currently in a mending-my-wounded-heart-because-he-left-me mood, just think that there are only two reasons why that happens: this may not be the right time yet OR he may not be the right one. Whatever it is, feel the pain. It’s what makes us human after all. You bleed just to know your alive. =)

4:35 AM 2/17/2011

A nice thought on a Thursday (TGIF doesnt really apply all the time) morning...

I had just finished reading 'Confessions of a Shopaholic' with a cup of coffee on a very early morning. Nice novel, funny and inspiring. Just made me think about my current life. I realized that I've never been this happy with my life, compared to what I had a year ago. Y'know the feeling of contentment even though you don't have everything. Come to think of it, I don't have a boyfriend. I've lost a boyfriend, who used to be the sexiest, most adorable and most sought-after guy in our school (I was just exaggerating =p). And now that it's been a year, I've realized that he's not really a big loss at all. I can say that I've finally moved on. I'm proud to say that I used to be head-over-heels in love with him, that I was hurt like hell, and that I've finally managed to moved on independently without that being-involved-to-somebody-else-just-so-I-can-forget-him cliche.I'm single, proud to be one, and though I'm missing the feeling of being with somebody special, I'm happy, absolutely happy. And I've transformed. Yeah, like an ugly duckling turning into a beautiful swan. Modesty and kidding aside (hehe), I find myself pretty now. It may not be because I really am but more likely because I'm just a bit more confident now. I've grown up, I am more mature and I've transformed myself into a woman.

And oh well, I'm just so excited to read all those e-books that I recently downloaded. Life's not perfect, but well, you just have to think that it's perfect...and everything will absolutely turn out perfectly! Til then! xoxo

The Rebirth

I've been thinking about the day I started to learn how to speak and write and it amazes me how excellent my parents have taught me…because I turned out to be so talkative and ‘vandalistic’.haha!

This is again another blog site from me, just so you can take a peek of what’s really running inside this sometimes-weird-always-wired head of mine (as if you really care, right? hehe)…about my thoughts, beliefs, reflection, feelings, and everything.

This is Imee...

and this is an extension of my very real self.

-xoxo-