I feel so alone...

Have you ever felt that emptiness when you realized that nobody is there waiting for you...

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?


It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life


It's so sad knowing that that person you long to have will never be yours.

Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new?


I don't know how to say what I exactly feel right now...

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind...

Tinuy-an Falls, The Doll House, Enchanted River and Island Hopping

This is the first team building of the Cadillac. 'twas so fun I can't believe all those adventures happened in just one day.

We traveled starting from Davao at around 8pm. There were about I guess 18 of us (including our teammates' kauyabans) who managed to fit inside the van. We were so congested and so sleepy yet very excited for our upcoming adventures. We arrived at Bislig, Surigao City at around 12 midnight.

sleepover at Janice's (Miss Noreen's former agent) house

So here's our itinerary:

1st stop: Tinuy-an Falls in Bislig City, Surigao del Sur.

Tinuy-an Falls in Bislig City is just one of the 12 majestic falls found in Surigao del Sur

You can go right where the falls fall(?) thru this bamboo boat. A long string is tied from either side so you just have to pull it to reach the other side.

This is just one of the 5 falls. You can reach the top thru a ladder or just thru the falls, fighting off the strong water current.

 It took us almost an hour to reach the falls. The road is underdeveloped but it's all worth it. This is the first, and is the best part of our trip. First stop pa lang, solve na.


2nd stop: Doll House, Bislig City

You have to endure this long flight of stairs to reach the Doll House

Yeah, it's full of dolls (hehe). This was featured in Rated K and is internationally known.

Here you can find all dolls from all over the world, dolls of fairy tale characters, villains and what-you-can-think of

3rd stop: Hinatuan’s Enchanted River and island hopping.

Absolutely enchanted. The water is so crystal clear and you can swim here with the fishes.

We're so lucky to have seen the feeding of the fishes at 12 noon. A music was played and that's when a school of fish goes out of its hiding place and the river was just literally filled with all kinds of fishes waiting to be fed. 'twas so enchanting.

So, yeah, this is my first ever island hopping experience, and feel na feel ko wearing my orange life jacket.hehe

Go swim and play with the turtles!

Sino siya?!

We reached home at around 11pm. It was raining and we were so exhausted (we're so crowded in the van and haven't eaten our dinner) but it was all worth it. Surigao indeed!

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Cafe Aurora

If you usually pass along Cabaguio Avenue, then Cafe Aurora must have rang a bell. This is one of the many places that we've visited for our cafe-hopping mission, so I have this responsibility of posting it for vanity's sake.

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Dear God, i wanna be happy again. i miss being one. i'd love to feel the goosebumps, thrills and the butterflies again. i wanna walk by a public park, holding hand in hand w/ somebody. i wanna wake up wrapped around her arms w/ a sweet morning kiss. i want someone to brush my hair and rub my back when im tired telling me, "you'll be fine." i want to learn how to cook, do the laundry, and make bed for someone. God, I want to feel loved by someone. if now's not the perfect time, pls help me move on and learn to be happy. AGAIN.

Ahmm, okay. Please send this letter to him.

Hi,

Do you still remember when I first said that to you? I guess not. You won't have to ask me though. I've saved every conversation we had on Facebook since day2 (day1 seemed so awkward for me then). Just so I can read them over and over again. Surprised? Well, yeah. I guess I've always loved you even I before I met you. It's a cliche, I know. But that's for real.

How long have we been friends? Oh, it's been 9 months now. And I've secretly loved you for all this time. 9 months is not just simply 9 months. It's hard to keep it all inside. I don't fall that hard with just about anybody. I did once before. And that had been tragic. And I've never felt more certain that I've fallen once again.

Yet, I guess I have to travel that same road of rejection again. You haven't given any sign of interest in me. Well, you don't have to worry about it. I understand. I'm certain that Im not your type. It's okay. I can handle it. Anyway, I'm used to it. I'm just freaking tired of doing this. I usually ask myself, "Why can't I just fall for someone who feels the same way that I do? Why does it have to be someone who won't love me back? Why does it have to be you?"

I'm currently watching "A Crazy Little Thing Called Love". How I wish I could say those things that I wanna say to you as bravely as what Nam did.

I'm a hopeless romantic. As always. And I guess this is the bravest thing that I can do. I don't even know if I can do more than this. I'm the most coward girl when it comes to love. So this is my best. Sorry.

If you're thinking that it's you, yes, you're right. It's YOU. And I'm writing this coz I can no longer contain it. I don't expect anything from you. I just wanna say it. If I can't say it straight to you, atleast I was able to say it HERE - where I first saw your smile and kind eyes, where we first met and became friends. Thanks for the likes and comments and the PMs. I know they will no longer come when you read this. But that's okay. Either way is a lose-lose situation.

So long...

D' Leonor Coffee Shop and Restaurant

Hmmm, how should I start with this one. If I can describe this place in one word, it would be WORSE. If you happen to know where this place is, I should warn you not to step inside this room with fully clothed tables and chairs because it's gonna be useless. The place doesn't know the word Customer Service. I don't even know how it manages to stay in business with all those lousy treatment that we got from the waiters. We were the only customers at that time but we felt that they would like us to eat our breakfast quickly and step out of their way as fast as we could. But still, we managed to still make some happy pictures:

Oh my, yeah, thank you for welcoming us anyway.


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Again and again...

2:12 PM 9/18/2011

Here it is again. I'm feeling this familiar feeling of sadness, emptiness and hurt. It's so sad when someone you like doesn't feel the way that you do. Worse is you have no one to share your feelings with because you don't want anybody else to know how ridiculous you are for feeling that way.

What's hard about being a girl is the risk of telling a guy that you like him. It's either he'll take advantage of that feeling or keep his distance from you. Either way is a losing battle. That's why I'd rather keep this feeling to myself and just treasure this friendship thingy that we have.

There's this certain girl who happened to be my officemate who's flirting with him and almost all their common friends know it. Okay, 1-0. Yeah, I'm jealous. And I don't wanna be. I don't want anybody else to know that I am.

Isn't it ironic when a lot of guys out there would be willing to be with you but that only person that you long be with is not one of them? Why do we always have to choose to love those people who can't love us back? Why does it have to be so hard?

To you, 

I like you. I really do. But I guess we can't be together because He wants you to be with someone more deserving than me. It's just so sad knowing that I don't fall that easily with just about anybody, and then you came, and I did, and that's it, nothing else follows. A bitter truth that we can never be together is just too unbearable. But well, I can manage. It's just that I've been on this road once, and I don't wanna go back again. It's just too tiresome. And yes, it's ruining my pride. But I guess I have to turn my back on you.

So long,

Me